Struggling

This week we had some very difficult news about a student at our school. A boy has been diagnosed with a very serious illness. I'm sure that most of you have probably already heard about this. I started thinking that this might be a good place to post my feelings. I have a very difficult time crying in front of others, so it is hard for me to talk about this subject with anyone else. However, the truth is that I am really, really struggling with this. I don't know how to deal with it. The idea that this innocent child has to go through so much suffering is just really hard to understand. I keep thinking about what I would do if I was in the place of his mother and I just have no idea. I have worked with this boy for the last couple of years and have really come to hold a special place in my heart for him. Sure, he was always a little on the hyperactive side, but you could tell that deep down he had a good heart and the last thing he wanted to do was to displease his teachers or parents in anyway. =) Each and every time that I think of him right now or think about his mother or his family, I start to cry. I really want to move past these emotions so that I can be helpful to the family rather than frozen by my sadness. There is nothing that has been said about him not making it through this and I truly believe with all of my heart, that he will. He is definitely a fighter. The week before I could tell that he was very sick, yet he was still joking around and, well, just being himself. So, I know he is tough. I just wish he and his family did not have to go through this. I know that God does not cause this kind of suffering, it's just hard to see Him allow it. It's also hard to see how some families are hit hard with so many different things. It just seems so unfair. Anyway, I know that I am babbling a little bit, I just wanted to let my feelings out a little bit, in hopes that I may be able to move past this stage of "grief" as you might call it. Thanks for reading.